I got to hang out with my friend Jim today, and it was really great. I'm SO happy for him because he seems like he's... well, happy... which is really out of character for him. He's a total pessimist, which is why I think he kinda sticks with me, cuz I'm such an optimist. But he was really hurt that this is the first time I've seen him since I've been back... and I feel horrible about it. I'm such a bad friend! And my friend Paul had a birthday party and I guess he really, really wanted me to go and I didn't... and he was really sad... Sorry Piz!!! Seriously dawg, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings! I really didn't know that those guys cared if I was there or not. I mean, I know they like hanging out, but I never would've thought it would hurt someone's feelings if I missed something... it makes me feel bad, but really really good at the same time. It's good to know people care...

Sometimes it's really hard to share you. I know that I get most of your time, and you'll always come home to me, and that I can't nor would I want to tell you what to do... but I know that you understand when I say that I wish that it was just you and me and I didn't have to think about your past or anything like that... I couldn't ask for anything more - you're too good to me as it is... but sometimes I just don't want to share. I know it's selfish, but I want you all to myself. It's just hard to think that you're not really all mine...

I swear, I am NEVER gonna get to see Saves the Day! Dude, if I hadn't been so cheap I coulda gotten tickets earlier, but NO... I had to wait and now they're all sold out. Fuck! I really want to see them!!! Grrrrrr!!!!!!!