I think that I have a gambling problem... I just spent about $100 in the span of an hour. I'm going to win about $200, so yeah, that's profit, but for awhile there it was looking like I wasn't going to win anything... but I just kept spending anyway. It would be okay if I had money to spend, but I totally don't... I'm going to end up homeless, begging people to let me use their computers so that I can play just one game of solitaire - just one more, I promise! It's like last year when I took a bus to Vegas to visit my best friend, Louisa... on the way back, there was a guy who wouldn't shut up about how he was going to see the Price Is Right. I think that he spent his last few bucks on the bus ticket and was hoping with his heart of hearts that he was going to win big on the show... too sad. The saddest part is that I'm totally going to end up like that.

I'm supposed to be reading for my ETHN 188 class at 10 tomorrow - I'm going to look like an idiot when I have absolutely nothing to contribute to the discussion. Prof: "So, Erin, what did you think about what Lincoln and Mamiya have to say about the denominational distinctions and how they applied to the Great Migration?" Me: "Ummmm... ummmm... ummmm... I think they were right?" But I guess even when I do read I have nothing to contribute to the discussion... why can't I take a class on the hazards of internet gambling? I know firsthand about that! Or maybe a class about girls and the winners that they choose to date? I think I could teach that class...

I saw the Toys R Us commercial today with ET and Geoffrey... that commercial makes me happy.

I miss my friends... I feel like I have nobody to talk to anymore. Not that I have tons of stuff to talk about, but you know how sometimes, you just want to call someone and laugh about nothing? or cry about nothing? or whatever? I feel like I don't have that someone anymore... everyone's so busy that I never can get a hold of them. I feel like my problems aren't as big as everyone else's, rendering them inconsequential. As far as magnitude of problems go, Sarah and John win hands down - I can, by no means, compete with them.

I think that this Blog thing is going to turn me into a public whiner... I'm not so sure I'm down with that.

So here is my attempt at rationalizing my crazy life. When I'm being not so self-centered, I can step back and realize that my life is not all that crazy - it's actually quite normal. But then I start thinking about all the crazy shit that's going on, and yeah, that's when I start getting super confused. I will continue this discussion after I do a whole bunch of other worthless shit...

I like how my ramblings always sound super intelligent...